day in, day out

I'm blue. It's along time i haven't written and i just wrote then i press a wrong button and now i do it again.
There're so many things happened to me. They made me tired and stressful. The toptic here is love and friendship. There're some people said they loved me.. but i don't know. i even don't know what is love. Anyway my parents don't allow me have any special relationship. I'm a baby girl in their mind forever. And i don't know when they can understand me in this aspect. I know they worried for me cuz i live far from home. But i'm a 20-year-old girl. I'm not a little girl any more. Sometimes I wondered when i get mature, because i live in their peace round when i was a child. And now i feel they don't believe me. I wish they can understand me...
This term i have 8 subjects and my final exams are coming nearer and nearer. I'm under pressure. If i don't do them well, my parents will punish me. I'm sure for it... hic,hic,hic :(
what should i do? they're really difficult. All i can do now is try and hope for the best. i don't know. Sometimes i console myself that everything will be okay..
I'm tired now.. it's late. and the outside, the noise from traffic disturb me. I'm in HaNoi, the capital city of Viet Nam. I wanna say the truth, Sometimes, i hate this place. >''< i wanna be somewhere quiet...